Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

i hate that i sometimes have a habit of putting myself down. i am definitely my own worst critic. i am a huge perfectionist (thank you being born under the virgo sign) so sometime, i hold that perfectionism to things that really shouldnt matter.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

i love my creativity. be it art, writing, guitar/singing, and recently sewing.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

whew. hard one. lots of things i suppose. as i said...too hard on myself about things.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

at the moment, nothing. i am not one to hold grudges really. i forgive pretty easily, but i dont forget things. if someone hurts me, i might forgive them...but because i dont forget what they did...they will have to earn back my trust and friendship.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

one day, when i am older and retired, i hope to buy an RV with the hubbers and travel the US.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

i hope i never have to experience my children dying before i do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

my beebles, without doubt.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

i could name a few people here. but right off the top of my head, as being the worst of the bunch would be my ex fiance.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

nobody really. when i let someone get close to me, its pretty much to stay. so the people that are my friends, have been my friends for years.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

i need to let go of my first love. thats pretty hard to do. i love my husband, of course, but as the saying goes, you never forget your first love.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

my eyes and my complexion.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

ummm....my feet? lol

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

dear tori amos,

i was going to kill myself when i was 16. its a long story. but thanks to your music, you "g[a]ve me love, g[a]ve me life, g[a]ve me myself again." i am forever in your debt. you are simply amazing.


Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

i dont have a hero that has let me down. my mom and is my hero, and she has never let me down. she is my greatest support.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

music. i absolutely could not live without music.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

i could definitely live without george. i hate george.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

"attonement child" by francine rivers. its about a college girl who gets raped and becomes pregnant with her rapists baby and her choice to not abort the baby.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

i am ok with it. you cant choose who you love. i think all people deserve to share their life with someone they love.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

i dont really like to discuss either. i dont care for organized religion. i am a christian but i claim no denomination. and politics...ugh. dont get me started.

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

i pass on em mostly. i might have the occasional glass or wine or some fruity drink if i go out to dinner or something.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

uh, duh...i go straing to the hospital where the took her. fight or no fight.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

i wish i hadnt had sex before i got married.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

i wish i had gone to nursing school when i had the opportunity before i got married and had children.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

buh...this is too time consuming thank you very much.

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

because god wants me to be. when its my time, he will call me home.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

yes. when i was 16. and because i was severely depressed and not thinking rationally.

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

being a mommy. i LOVE being a mommy.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

be scared, a little unhappy at first because i dont want another baby right now, and then eventually excited.

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

i hope to change being hard on myself. i want to change that because i am tired of being that way. it doesnt help anything to be down on myself a lot. it makes me feel bad in general.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

hi me.

i love that you are kind. i love that you have an old soul. i love that you love being a mommy. i love that you are creative. i love that you are able to find joy in the little things more often than not. i love that you like to help others in need, even if it means sacrificing something of your own. i love your eyes, they are soulful.